[ somarium ] voicemail

[selfmotivations]

Hey, it's Alvin. Just leave a message and I'll get right back to you.

[ooc: Just label any IC/OOC stuff in the subect line o/]

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lae if im getting anything wrong tell me

[healinguilt]

Those of lower research or security positions did not know. [ Shaking her head. ] When I tried to... carefully ask those who appeared to be of more authority, they responded with the latter.

nope you're good

[selfmotivations]

Hm...interesting. Now I really have to wonder who's pulling the strings and why they're being so secretive about it.

ima say kermit the frog works for nocturne next okok

[healinguilt]

If they're keeping it from their own employees, then it would be something that could possibly bring about less loyalty, perhaps.

ROTFLMAO

[selfmotivations]

Could be. Or something else going on.

[he lets out a breath as he crosses his arms behind his back and leans against the back of the truck.]

Man this is complicated...

[he tilts his head slightly to look at her.]

Have you told anyone else this? Kid? He should probably know.

Re: ROTFLMAO

[healinguilt]

I've told Xerxes Break.

If I told Kid, he'd most likely mobilize who he has working for him into groups and begin some sort of operation. And if that happens, Nocturne would known soon enough and the safety of all of us working for Nocturne would be jeopardized.

[ Also telling kid she's been doing evil things hahaha fuck that shit. She don't want no shinigami on her ass. ]

[selfmotivations]

Fair point.

[...wait.]

All of you? There's someone else working in there?

[healinguilt]

There are others. Sherlock, Kazuya, and... Lacie either was captured or voluntarily came to them, I'm not certain. They are the ones of which I am aware.

[selfmotivations]

Man...and here I was worried about you being alone. But that's an interesting group they have going there.

Do you ever meet with them?

[healinguilt]

I've spoken with Sherlock a week ago, and I've spoken with Kazuya just recently on what I know [ By this point at least. ] and plan to follow up on Lacie.

[selfmotivations]

So what are their motivations for working with them?

[healinguilt]

I do not know.

[selfmotivations]

What, never bothered to ask? Or even a little curious?

[healinguilt]

I can hazard a guess for Kazuya and Sherlock, but ultimately I do not know. Nor would I ask. I didn't see how it was important.

[selfmotivations]

Would be good to know if we have actual traitors or if they're like you and pulling a double.

[healinguilt]

Well... I was a traitor first, too. Technically speaking.

Sherlock is not the type to answer questions directly. His latest theory about me is that I am attempting to control him. As for Kazuya, I trust him enough professionally and can ask him, I suppose.

[selfmotivations]

Technically.

Just keep up a group of allies. If you get in trouble, you can at least have someone there to fall back in. If you both get in trouble—well, still better than if you were by yourself.

[healinguilt]

Admittedly, it's a bit difficult to get in touch with any of them while there, but I'll see what I can do.

[selfmotivations]

Just keep tabs on each other. You don't want to look like you're conspiring together, either. Just the casual meet up and such. Keep it natural.

[healinguilt]

[ Um. ] Anything else you'd like to add, Mr. Expert?

[selfmotivations]

[—ah.]

Heh, sorry.

[he turns away.]

Guess it's been a while since I've had to actually think about these things so it's all just kind of flowing out.

[though what does that say about him, he wonders. knowing all of these nuances on how to trick and manipulate people.]

[healinguilt]

...Don't worry. I'll take your advice to heart. And if things don't go well, we'll know it's my fault. [ Her tone is a bit gentler just then. Perhaps in the past she would have patted him on the shoulder, but as they are now? She keeps that physical distance. ]

[selfmotivations]

Let's just make sure things go well.

[not "hope" they go well. an insistence that it will go well. because it not going well is something he doesn't want to think about.]

[healinguilt]

Agreed.

[ Well, she should leave it at that. She finishes the rest of her wine. Hopefully it won't be the last they get to share, but she keeps that thought to herself. ]

[selfmotivations]

[and he'll just stay silent, his thoughts replaying the information he heard from the beginning all the way to the end. it's a lot of stuff. a lot of risks. he takes another swig from his bottle before setting it down on top of the side of the truck bed and stares out to the vast desert around them. they had brought food, but he doesn't have much of an appetite for it. not that he expected to eat, anyway.

he stays like that for a few more moments, and then without looking at her:]

Are you scared?

[healinguilt]

[ The long silence is mirrored in her own pause. She's only thinking that there are risks but she has to take them in order for this to work. ]

...Yes.